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Inner Strength
This is an answer to a Ms. Magic question. I thought it would be helpful to others."
Dear Ms. Magic, We did everything we could to keep this relationship alive. During these 4 years, he left me many times: we were arguing too much and the relationship was not healthy. I should have been the one to leave but I never had the courage to. I think it was a good thing that he left me, our son is young and can't realise what was going on so it makes it easier for him to deal with it. Right after leaving me (2 or 3 weeks), a younger woman moved in with him and his mom because she had no place to stay. He said he doesn't love her and wants to come back with me but keeps her there mostly because he knows that as soon as he leaves her, he's coming back to me, but also because she is nice and he enjoys her company. Still, he does come and visit me once in a while, without her knowing.
I know we will not be able to live together again. All the past will come back to haunt us, we will not stop arguing, I will not trust him with women (I never did), etc. My family values tell me to try again but my head tells me to stop that non-sense. My heart is all mixed up. The problem is that even if I know I should end it now, I am not strong enough to do it (even if I know I would not regret ending it). I wish we could find a way to be a family again but it is impossible. I feel like this is slowly destroying me. I have to do something. continued
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"She needs to build her inner strength."